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Sometimes I tally up my recent bad behavior in my head. Many of the sins are pretty small—I’m terrible at responding to messages, for instance. I have no object permanence and misplace my phone approximately 18 times a day. I would like to not drink at all but I still use a glass of wine to unravel myself at the end of a day. Others are deeper, more structural—I can be very removed, unemotional about things that matter to me. I hurt people with my ambivalence. My relationships with men contain problem within problem with problem—it’s kind of a matryoshka doll type of situation. I’m not proud of these weaknesses.

Apr 27, 2022 ∙ Paid Etel Adnan, Untitled, 2012 Sometimes I tally up my recent bad behavior in my head. Many of the sins are pretty small—I’m terrible at responding to messages, for instance. I have no object permanence and misplace my phone approximately 18 times a day. I would like to not drink at all but I still use a glass of wine to unravel myself at the end of a day. O… Keep reading with a 7-day free trial Subscribe to bookbear express to keep reading this post and get 7 days of free access to the full post archives.

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