being on the internet - by Ava - bookbear express

Note: above is a screenshot from Dolly Alderton’s excellent book, Everything I Know About Love. Below is half a chapter of a novel I’ve been writing, which is why it’s in past tense and the names are different. * Being on the Internet made me feel raw and nervy. I refreshed and got newness. I refreshed again: more newness. I couldn’t tell if I liked the feeling of constant low-grade exposure. I knew that I kept seeking it out.

Note: above is a screenshot from Dolly Alderton’s excellent book, Everything I Know About Love. Below is half a chapter of a novel I’ve been writing, which is why it’s in past tense and the names are different. * Being on the Internet made me feel raw and nervy. I refreshed and got newness. I refreshed again: more newness. I couldn’t tell if I liked the feeling of constant low-grade exposure. I knew that I kept seeking it out. Jamie and I called it the scrollhole. As in getting lost in the scrollhole. The scrollhole was what you tumbled into when you were trying order a quick dinner on…

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