flâneur

how i learned to stop worrying and love the internet hate

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I’ve written before about how being an internet-visible person can be pretty stressful sometimes. e.g.: or, my personal favorite: I visualize hangups as little crooked bits, like muscle spasms, in the soul. Sometimes things are ironed out and smooth, but sometimes there’s a tangle where a part of me has seized and is trying hard to prevent further damage. I can’t see into the tangle, I just know that it’s tight and afraid.

I’ve written before about how being an internet-visible person can be pretty stressful sometimes. e.g.: or, my personal favorite: I visualize hangups as little crooked bits, like muscle spasms, in the soul. Sometimes things are ironed out and smooth, but sometimes there’s a tangle where a part of me has seized and is trying hard to prevent further damage. I can’t see into the tangle, I just know that it’s tight and afraid. My strategy for these tangles is something like “be gentle and slow, keep careful, persistent, compassionate attention on the thing that bothers you, and it’ll work…

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