flâneur

present tense - by Ava - bookbear express

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Housekeeping: ask me Dear Bear questions here. The matchmaking results will be out in the next couple of days :) I don’t have answers to any of my questions. I still remember the first time I met E at True Laurel. I showed up wearing athleisure; he picked at the mushrooms. One of us ordered the cocktail with the pine needles. I don’t know if we’ll ever talk again, but it’s also impossible to imagine that we wouldn’t. Or N—how do you rescue someone who’s in love with a person who sucks? I guess the conventional answer is that you don’t, but it feels so unbearable. Or K, off in the world with a different gender, still a million times smarter than I am. When I was younger I was so afraid of conflict, of people being mad at me or thinking I was beyond redemption, and now with every passing year I just think: we don’t get to love so many people. A real friendship that sprawls across many years—how many of those do we get? But now I hear your voice in my head. You say: people are allowed to

Housekeeping: ask me Dear Bear questions here. The matchmaking results will be out in the next couple of days :) I don’t have answers to any of my questions. I still remember the first time I met E at True Laurel. I showed up wearing athleisure; he picked at the mushrooms. One of us ordered the cocktail with the pine needles. I don’t know if we’ll ever talk again, but it’s also impossible to imagine that we wouldn’t. Or N—how do you rescue someone who’s in love with a person who sucks? I guess the conventional answer is that you don’t, but it feels so unbearable. Or K, off in the world with…

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